Had an extraordinarily great yoga session today at St. Mark's in the East Village. That was much needed, given the stress and uneasiness i've been feeling recently.. including planning and re-planning Howie's surprise birthday (which, according to him, was "a smashing success" ♥), mentally preparing myself for the SICU, uncontrollably eating way out of my usual!, and some personal issues with Love. Regardless of whether or not those emotions were necessary, i did feel them! and they were valid at the time!! Anyhow, i just needed to simply relax. So with every deep breath, i exhaled one thing that used to bother me; and with every concentrated pose, i focused on producing positive outcomes, pushing myself to ACT instead of wasting time worrying and then subconsciously forming evil thoughts in my head that cloud all the rest of my rationality.
I'm a worry-wart, i know.
That's something i have to work on...
By the end of the hour-long exercise, my mind was so clear i could see through my closed eyes! As we were lying there, the instructor read this quote that impacted me so much i felt like it was directed towards ME. I totally became a part of that quote, and i'd like to share it with you now:
I AM THE DECISIVE ELEMENTI love how Life answers my questions in the most amazing, unforeseen ways. I feel much better now.
by Goethe
I have come to the frightening conclusion that I am the decisive element.
It is my personal approach that creates the climate.
It is my daily mood that makes the weather.
I possess tremendous power to make life miserable or joyous.
I can be a tool of torture or an instrument of inspiration.
I can humiliate or humor, hurt or heal.
In all situations, it is my response that decides
whether a crisis is escalated or de-escalated,
and a person is humanized or de-humanized.
If we treat people as they are, we make them worse.
If we treat people as they ought to be, we help them become
what they are capable of becoming.* * *
Namaste. =)
