So You Think You Can Dance?

I haven't been watching this season, but i came across a routine on YouTube that moved me to post it on here. This is Chelsea Highwater (hot) and Mark Kanemura (double hot) dancing hip hop to "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis. Triple hot!!

I Am the Decisive Element

Had an extraordinarily great yoga session today at St. Mark's in the East Village. That was much needed, given the stress and uneasiness i've been feeling recently.. including planning and re-planning Howie's surprise birthday (which, according to him, was "a smashing success" ♥), mentally preparing myself for the SICU, uncontrollably eating way out of my usual!, and some personal issues with Love. Regardless of whether or not those emotions were necessary, i did feel them! and they were valid at the time!! Anyhow, i just needed to simply relax. So with every deep breath, i exhaled one thing that used to bother me; and with every concentrated pose, i focused on producing positive outcomes, pushing myself to ACT instead of wasting time worrying and then subconsciously forming evil thoughts in my head that cloud all the rest of my rationality.

I'm a worry-wart, i know.
That's something i have to work on...

By the end of the hour-long exercise, my mind was so clear i could see through my closed eyes! As we were lying there, the instructor read this quote that impacted me so much i felt like it was directed towards ME. I totally became a part of that quote, and i'd like to share it with you now:

I AM THE DECISIVE ELEMENT
by Goethe

I have come to the frightening conclusion that I am the decisive element.
It is my personal approach that creates the climate.
It is my daily mood that makes the weather.
I possess tremendous power to make life miserable or joyous.
I can be a tool of torture or an instrument of inspiration.
I can humiliate or humor, hurt or heal.
In all situations, it is my response that decides
whether a crisis is escalated or de-escalated,
and a person is humanized or de-humanized.
If we treat people as they are, we make them worse.
If we treat people as they ought to be, we help them become
what they are capable of becoming.

* * *

I love how Life answers my questions in the most amazing, unforeseen ways. I feel much better now.

Namaste. =)

Happy Birthday to My Amazing Boyfriend!

After weeks of stressful planning, and with the help of his awesome friends, I was able to pull off a wonderful surprise for Howie's birthday! Aside from a minor setback which caused additional stress that Howie created (lol he made me tell him which restaurant i was taking him to, then he changed it! it ended up being better than the original idea though. hehe), things went pretty smoothly, and more! It was a delightful success!

He was on-call during his birthday weekend, which is most unfortunate but not quite surprising considering his profession, but I decided Friday (yesterday) would be the best day. We celebrated in TriBeca. I treated him to an amazing French dinner at Chanterelle topped off with a specially made birthday dessert from the chef. That dinner itself would've sufficed to make for a remarkably special--and highly romantic--celebration! But we didn't stop there. After dinner, we walked over to M by Megu for drinks, where he was pleasantly SURPRISED by some of his closest friends! One of those friends is director of the place so she helped me set it up. Gotta love open bar with a professional mixologist! He kept those delicious cocktails coming. There was green tea cake! I'm so glad they were able to make it. That was an incredible way for me to meet and get to know the people whom Howie holds near & dear. I learned that he's been blessed with really good friends =). You dont understand the pains i went through finding these people whom i hardly know, getting their emails and hunting them down on FaceBook (lol), messaging them, then making a detailed Evite to send out 2 days before showtime, and repeatedly making sure of each one's confirmations!! hahaha. *pphhheewww!!!

Thank goodness his birthday only comes once a year!

Aside from planning for that night, i spent the other half of my time getting his gift. At first i was racking my brain on what to get, because i simply didn't know! But all i had to do was take a few moments to think about him, and the ideas came rolling. Instead of 1 thing, i got him 5. hehee. Aren't i sweet? ;)

oh yea, and today (his actual birthday) he was surprised once more by his cousin and her bf with another yummy birthday cake! I just realized that altogether, he had 3 birthday cakes with candles to blow out. Wow , his birthday turned out to be better than planned. ♥

gosh i'm tired! goodnight =)

I'm On a Good Music Roll!

I've been browsing Pandora and Imeem for the past 2 hours, and found a bunch of songs that tugged at my heart! Gotta take notice when that happens, which is rare and always comes unexpectedly. =)

p.s.- Songs 7 to 10 are only snippets, so click on the link below to pop up the playlist in a separate window & hear them all in full length!
So Happy

Slumdog Song Remixed by The Pussycat Dolls

A.R. Rahman, the genius behind the finale song "Jai Ho" for Slumdog Millionnaire, proves just how genius he can be. He collaborated with The Pussycat Dolls to make an awesome remix AND a sexy music video! ENJOY it below. Btw- exactly what nationality is Nicole Scherzinger? I thought she was part Filipina or some type of Asian.. Hawaiian.. but here she looks Indian. Whatevs, she's always been hot. ;)

S.I.C.U. woohoo!

(Surgical Intensive Care Unit)

oh dear. is this going to be a monthly blog? i sure hope not! i used to be able to blog every other day. Well, so much has happened.

About a month ago, i received a phone call from my awesome nurse manager that a full-time, night-shift SICU position just opened. Mind you, i got this news via voicemail, since she called during the day while i was asleep. Thank goodness my hunger woke me up a little past noontime to get the message! Anyway, in her message, she had spoken with the nurse manager in SICU about me and suggested i apply for transfer there, saying it will be a good transition for me. I jumped out of bed and squealed! I had to listen to the message again. Immediately i called her back and told her of my strong interest in transferring... then i caught myself, hoping she didn't interpret my excitement as wanting to leave her unit, 4 Linsky! (I do love my coworkers on 4 Linsky). I let her know that i would certainly apply to transfer, and she warned me to do it as soon as possible, as the postings are only up for a week. What she didn't know was that i was just 1 block away from the hospital! lol i was at Howie's. In a matter of one hour, i went to the nursing office, filled out the form, went to the SICU, spoke with the nurse manager, handed her a copy of my application (she was surprised to see me just minutes after she spoke with my manager. hahaha), then, after several failed & frustrated attempts at faxing it to HR, i actually cabbed it to the HR office in Midtown to personally hand in the paper myself!! *phew! .. then i called back my manager and told her I DID IT! in a matter of a one hour lol.

i crossed my fingers that week...

i made sure i kept busy in order to refrain myself from paranoia and anxiety. Thank goodness that was the weekend of Valentine's and President's Day, when Howie took me on a Long Island expedition hehee (see previous blog) ♥. I even picked up an overtime shift. thank goodness, really! or else i would've gone mad.

Then, that next week, i got another phone call from my manager, of course during the day, and of course while i was sleeping! So i got the GREAT NEWS via voicemail again that my transfer application was approved! I suddenly felt relief, followed by lots of "omg OMG omg omg omg OMG!!!!!" hahaha. i'm going to the SICU! i'm gonna run with the big boys! *pause*...wow.. i don't know anything! oh man, i'm scared.

I guess i must've done something right at work for my manager to go ahead and recommend me to the sicu. I'm amazed she remembered my plan to work there one day--the last and only time i mentioned that was way back during my job interview with her! which is why i think she's so awesome. So my official start date is in two weeks. Orientation will start on DAYS, M-F. My sleeping schedule will totally be out of whack. At least i'll have my weekends off. And the best part is i will finally have the same schedule as Howie, yay! Until then, we're like passing ships. He gets out of work in the evening, and we see each other for literally 30 minutes (out of the whole day!) before i leave for work at 7pm! and i work every other weekend, and even still, on some weekends that i'm off, he'd be ON CALL!! *arrgghh, i really hated it when he's on-call during my weekends off. It got a bit depressing. So our synched scheds is the upside of being on days temporarily.

Although it makes me sad knowing i'll miss my 4L coworkers, i'm looking forward to my big move. Looking at the big picture, this is something i really want and need in order to reach my goals. Besides, in my heart i'll always be an Abilifly sister! heheh that's between me and 4L ;)