It's Better if You Don't Understand

"I could tell that he saw the world around him as it really was. To me, he seemed to see the sap bleeding from the trunks of the pine trees, and the circle of brightness in the sky where the sun was smothered by clouds. He lived in the world that was visible. I knew he noticed the trees, and the mud, and the children in the street, but I had no reason to believe he'd ever noticed me...

"Perhaps this is why when he spoke to me, tears came stinging to my eyes."

0711

here we go, welcome to my funeral.
here i go, this is my confessional.
a lost cause, nobody can save my soul.
i am so delusional.
i have destroyed it, it's gone.
payback is sick.
*i'm dancing with tears in my eyes*
just fighting to get through the night.
i'm losing it.
with every move i die.
i'm fading, i'm broken inside ( i admit )
i've wasted a love of my life.
when did i become such a hypocrite?
double life, lies that u caught me in.
trust me, i'm paying for it.
with every move i die.
on the floor i'm just a zombie.
who i am is not who i wanna be.
i'm such a tragedy. this is it.
never once thought i'd be in pieces left behind. Ke$ha